It’s been awhile. A long while. It took me awhile but I’m back and better than I was. My life has changed but it’s better. Of course divorce is not something you expect to go through when you get married, but it happens. I have been busy rebuilding my life and my kids. We’ve come out better on the other side.
The boys are growing like weeds! Ryan is 23 and doing amazing! Still going to college and working full time and playing rugby and has a girlfriend Hanna. She’s amazing as well 💜 . Ethan is now 15 and a freshman in high school. We got his definitive diagnosis of autism spectrum disorder in 2015 , but I have generally known since he was 2. He is so smart he loves anything to do with outer space and the universe. He loves the Big Bang Theory. And he’s so funny... it gets me in trouble because it’s hard to be serious sometimes! Matthew is 11. What can’t I say about this handsome, caring and compassionate young man. He’s an animal whisperer and he wants to save all of them. He is so knowledgeable about airplanes cars and trucks. He loves NASCAR and Monster Jam. He’s in 5th grade and doing well despite his not wanting to go. I’m so very lucky to be their mama.
I can’t wait to start writing about us again and new adventures we have. I will try even though I know life happens ! Glad to be back!
Saturday, February 24, 2018
Wednesday, January 1, 2014
Happy new year!
Happy New Year Everyone!!!
Today is the first day of 2014. I cant believe how fast 2013 went by. I have to say it was one of the most difficult years of my life. I was blindsided two weeks after my birthday by my husband telling me that he wanted a divorce. The thing is i didnt want the divorce, i still dont.
I have gone out on 2 dates and you know what its not the same. I miss my husband. I love him more than anything. No matter what we went thru i still want him, and only him. The last half of the year had many firsts, the first time we had birthdays without him, the first halloween, christmas and new years. Nothing is the same, it still felt like we were missing something.
I know everyone is saying it will get easier with time, am i just denying everything so i dont have to listen to them? i feel like most of me is missing without him. I still feel like im dying without him. He is not a bad person and hes not a bad man, he just creates difficult times. i love him. Yes the guy i went out with is nice. but its not him. i want to share everything with my husband not someone else. Yes i know i made mistakes and i know we both did and maybe we didnt handle them well. but i just cant turn it off like a switch. He seems too.
I always ask myself, will i ever get past this, ive loved him for so long. I try and move on without him. but then there is that tug in my heart and the ache in my belly that knows it isnt right. I know its not all my fault or all his, i just wish we could work thru it. And that the second things got tough that it wasnt the choice to end it.
Tuesday, November 5, 2013
Its all about the changes!
Hi Everyone!!!
i know its been awhile...since August. But we are alive and doing well. As any of you have read, you of have read, its been a tough couple of years for us. My husband was diagnosed with PTSD two years ago, and its been a roller coaster since. Two years ago he mentioned getting divorced but we managed to work it out, and we bought a house and our life was moving in the right direction. To have the house and both have jobs and everything being positive...to have him bring up divorce again one week after my birthday was a shock.
He served me with preliminary papers in January. Everything was fine, and then a week before Easter the kids told me that my husband had shot a BB gun at them...NO BBS hit the kids!! But he did it because they weren't listening to them. Then on Easter he pointed a paintball gun at me and turned on the air and wanted to shoot me with it. Well that Monday i got a call from my kids school saying that they were scared enough to get the district and authorities involved if i didn't move to correct the problem. That day my neighbor took me to get a restraining order, I had no choice really , i wasn't even given the opportunity to confront him.
Of course the first initial restraining order was only for ten days and he wasn't allowed to our house or near the kids or myself, after the ten days was up and the order was somewhat modified but was put in place till June.
We had a court date august 1 and the divorce would be final November 1.
He has come over and things have gone well, and he has also come over and its been a disaster because he wasn't having a good day.
i still love him, and wont turn my back on him. But i didn't do anything to deserve any of this especially my kids. He put our house up for sale in mid august. but me and the kids are still living here and have to deal with people coming for showings.
He keeps threatening to take me back to court, to have us thrown out but it is ordered by the court that we get to stay here till it sells. .
If he was to ever get us removed we would be homeless and i don't think the court would allow it.
the other change is that yes its been a tough 8 months since the restraining order but the past few I'm seeing things turn around, and we are accepting our new life. We are doing OK, Yes things are a bit tougher but I'm getting by. and my attitude is you may have knocked me down but if he thought he was going to keep me there he was wrong and i always come out stronger on the other side. I'm excited that I'm able to say that as i haven't ever said that since this is going on.
till next time friends <3 font="">
i know its been awhile...since August. But we are alive and doing well. As any of you have read, you of have read, its been a tough couple of years for us. My husband was diagnosed with PTSD two years ago, and its been a roller coaster since. Two years ago he mentioned getting divorced but we managed to work it out, and we bought a house and our life was moving in the right direction. To have the house and both have jobs and everything being positive...to have him bring up divorce again one week after my birthday was a shock.
He served me with preliminary papers in January. Everything was fine, and then a week before Easter the kids told me that my husband had shot a BB gun at them...NO BBS hit the kids!! But he did it because they weren't listening to them. Then on Easter he pointed a paintball gun at me and turned on the air and wanted to shoot me with it. Well that Monday i got a call from my kids school saying that they were scared enough to get the district and authorities involved if i didn't move to correct the problem. That day my neighbor took me to get a restraining order, I had no choice really , i wasn't even given the opportunity to confront him.
Of course the first initial restraining order was only for ten days and he wasn't allowed to our house or near the kids or myself, after the ten days was up and the order was somewhat modified but was put in place till June.
We had a court date august 1 and the divorce would be final November 1.
He has come over and things have gone well, and he has also come over and its been a disaster because he wasn't having a good day.
i still love him, and wont turn my back on him. But i didn't do anything to deserve any of this especially my kids. He put our house up for sale in mid august. but me and the kids are still living here and have to deal with people coming for showings.
He keeps threatening to take me back to court, to have us thrown out but it is ordered by the court that we get to stay here till it sells. .
If he was to ever get us removed we would be homeless and i don't think the court would allow it.
the other change is that yes its been a tough 8 months since the restraining order but the past few I'm seeing things turn around, and we are accepting our new life. We are doing OK, Yes things are a bit tougher but I'm getting by. and my attitude is you may have knocked me down but if he thought he was going to keep me there he was wrong and i always come out stronger on the other side. I'm excited that I'm able to say that as i haven't ever said that since this is going on.
till next time friends <3 font="">
Wednesday, August 28, 2013
What a summer!!t
Hey Everyone~
Its been a long time since i last posted! Well as some of you may have read, my husband and i were having some issues...to put it easily. Well we went to court on May 2 and nothing really changed. He continues to bully and dictate what he wants done, despite that he moved out. He spent money like a mad man and he also was pushing for us to come to a settlement so he would know how much he would be paying me.
Everything was semi worked out but he still comes over to just dictate and be bossy. Mean while still not sleeping well . He will come over to see penny and he will fall asleep. Don't get me wrong i love him. And i miss him. But sometimes hes a pain in the rear!
In other news...the kids and i are coping well. We haven't had much of a summer compared to others because for one i don't have a car and for two no money. We went to the beach with the neighbors a few times just to get out of the house and then M's birthday was just last week so we took him to chilis for a special birthday dinner and then on his actual birthday we got a cake and just had the neighbors over. My
husband came over Sunday and picked up M and took him shopping.
Now we are just gearing up for school !!! YAY ! YAY! YAY!
Don't get me wrong i love my kid but being home all summer with nothing really to do and no car...its been a bit overwhelming besides having to deal with all the other crap going on.
E is going into 5th grade and he is going to the middle school which i can see will be a bumpy start! But hopefully he will adapt well to it.
M is going into 1st grade and while I'm very excited for this he is worried about too much writing. LOL! yea he is in for 11 more years of school,these kids now a days have to buck up.
R is back for his sophomore year of college, and will be playing rugby again starting in September.
Not to much else is going on, im tired of the new england humidity and ready for cooler weather ...and fall all the smells and tastes and sights. One of the things i want to try and do is get to Salem.... Ive always wanted to go there!
Well im off for now!
Its been a long time since i last posted! Well as some of you may have read, my husband and i were having some issues...to put it easily. Well we went to court on May 2 and nothing really changed. He continues to bully and dictate what he wants done, despite that he moved out. He spent money like a mad man and he also was pushing for us to come to a settlement so he would know how much he would be paying me.
Everything was semi worked out but he still comes over to just dictate and be bossy. Mean while still not sleeping well . He will come over to see penny and he will fall asleep. Don't get me wrong i love him. And i miss him. But sometimes hes a pain in the rear!
In other news...the kids and i are coping well. We haven't had much of a summer compared to others because for one i don't have a car and for two no money. We went to the beach with the neighbors a few times just to get out of the house and then M's birthday was just last week so we took him to chilis for a special birthday dinner and then on his actual birthday we got a cake and just had the neighbors over. My
husband came over Sunday and picked up M and took him shopping.
Now we are just gearing up for school !!! YAY ! YAY! YAY!
Don't get me wrong i love my kid but being home all summer with nothing really to do and no car...its been a bit overwhelming besides having to deal with all the other crap going on.
E is going into 5th grade and he is going to the middle school which i can see will be a bumpy start! But hopefully he will adapt well to it.
M is going into 1st grade and while I'm very excited for this he is worried about too much writing. LOL! yea he is in for 11 more years of school,these kids now a days have to buck up.
R is back for his sophomore year of college, and will be playing rugby again starting in September.
Not to much else is going on, im tired of the new england humidity and ready for cooler weather ...and fall all the smells and tastes and sights. One of the things i want to try and do is get to Salem.... Ive always wanted to go there!
Well im off for now!
Wednesday, April 24, 2013
The ups and downs of my life
Hi All~
So its been a bit since i last wrote but life has been a bit crazy here.As you may have read my husband served me with divorce papers in january, it caught me off guard and out of left field. He moved himself onto the couch and said he was going to move out then stayed because he said he was making it easier for me and the kids.
Here's the thing, it isnt easier. My husband has ptsd with severe depression and anxiety and panic attacks. My husband i feel is either bipolar 2 or rapid cycling bipolar as one minute hes fine then his depression will hit him out of no where. You never know what the day will bring. He works with a bunch of asses and it really bothers him and causes issues as he is a hard worker and they arent.
Ive been dealing with this for two years. Its not easy. Ive had to take meds myself because its hard for me to deal with all of this. the worrying on if he will kill himself. If hes having an attack and is able to work through it. Wondering how this got triggered two years ago and where my husband went. I try to make things easy for him and as normal as possible. Two years ago he talked about divorce too but we were able to work through it. The silly thing about all of this is, we bought a house and we've lived in it a little over a year before this happened. To finally realize our dream to just have him do this makes no sense.
Hes been not taking his meds regularly. He isnt going to counseling. He was supposed to start an anger management class. all things he should have been doing but wasnt. he goes to counseling through the va and he said the counselor never calls him back or doesnt have an appointment for 3 weeks. thats not helping him. Then the counselor tells him the va can give him all of his meds and then he runs out and they tell him sorry we cant get that one.
I had to get a restraining order against him on april 1st due to the constant verbal emotional and mental abuse. i have been a victim of domestic violence before and i can say he scared me enough to do it. The same day when the cops had to accompany him to our house for him to get things i sobbed the entire time he was getting his things.
Of course the initial order only lasts 10 days so we went back the 11th, i had it lifted so he could come home, of course he was pissed, and i think more hurt than anything. He ended up being gone the weekend for a paintball thing, but came home stayed 2 nites and then kind of moved out. The kids were home because of spring break so they were here and they were crying etc and he told them he would come and see them later in the week, but he hasnt.
He said he doesnt feel safe at the house he thinks i am going to set him up to go to jail, and thats not what i want i want him to see that he needs help. and that despite his problems i dont love him less, hell im the only one who stays right by his side. i hope we can work it out. Ive just told the kids hes gone for work because he does go away alot. I talked to him today and weve been texting. this man is my life, he saved me and im the only one who knows what he goes through. his family claims they know but they dont ..they arent around on a normal basis. On top of it his mom treats the kids the same but his dad cut them off so they are also struggling with that why they cant see grandpa.
We are finally getting nice weather, ive done some yard work but nothing compared to what he does. Also we are all settling back since the bombing in boston. while i live 45 minutes outside of boston you could just feel the tension etc. The sad thing is, is i feel sorry for the 19 year old brother, it seems he was brainwashed by his brother, and from the reports i see and hear they are saying he wasnt like that before and his brother had some sort of control over him. The sad thing is that he had his whole life in front of him. try to see it as a parent and think of all he is loosing. He had friends at college, was playing a sport, everyone that knows him cant believe he was part of it because its so out of character for him. as for the older brother well hes another story and i dont feel sorry for anyone except his wife and daughter since it seems they were under his control also.
So its been a bit since i last wrote but life has been a bit crazy here.As you may have read my husband served me with divorce papers in january, it caught me off guard and out of left field. He moved himself onto the couch and said he was going to move out then stayed because he said he was making it easier for me and the kids.
Here's the thing, it isnt easier. My husband has ptsd with severe depression and anxiety and panic attacks. My husband i feel is either bipolar 2 or rapid cycling bipolar as one minute hes fine then his depression will hit him out of no where. You never know what the day will bring. He works with a bunch of asses and it really bothers him and causes issues as he is a hard worker and they arent.
Ive been dealing with this for two years. Its not easy. Ive had to take meds myself because its hard for me to deal with all of this. the worrying on if he will kill himself. If hes having an attack and is able to work through it. Wondering how this got triggered two years ago and where my husband went. I try to make things easy for him and as normal as possible. Two years ago he talked about divorce too but we were able to work through it. The silly thing about all of this is, we bought a house and we've lived in it a little over a year before this happened. To finally realize our dream to just have him do this makes no sense.
Hes been not taking his meds regularly. He isnt going to counseling. He was supposed to start an anger management class. all things he should have been doing but wasnt. he goes to counseling through the va and he said the counselor never calls him back or doesnt have an appointment for 3 weeks. thats not helping him. Then the counselor tells him the va can give him all of his meds and then he runs out and they tell him sorry we cant get that one.
I had to get a restraining order against him on april 1st due to the constant verbal emotional and mental abuse. i have been a victim of domestic violence before and i can say he scared me enough to do it. The same day when the cops had to accompany him to our house for him to get things i sobbed the entire time he was getting his things.
Of course the initial order only lasts 10 days so we went back the 11th, i had it lifted so he could come home, of course he was pissed, and i think more hurt than anything. He ended up being gone the weekend for a paintball thing, but came home stayed 2 nites and then kind of moved out. The kids were home because of spring break so they were here and they were crying etc and he told them he would come and see them later in the week, but he hasnt.
He said he doesnt feel safe at the house he thinks i am going to set him up to go to jail, and thats not what i want i want him to see that he needs help. and that despite his problems i dont love him less, hell im the only one who stays right by his side. i hope we can work it out. Ive just told the kids hes gone for work because he does go away alot. I talked to him today and weve been texting. this man is my life, he saved me and im the only one who knows what he goes through. his family claims they know but they dont ..they arent around on a normal basis. On top of it his mom treats the kids the same but his dad cut them off so they are also struggling with that why they cant see grandpa.
We are finally getting nice weather, ive done some yard work but nothing compared to what he does. Also we are all settling back since the bombing in boston. while i live 45 minutes outside of boston you could just feel the tension etc. The sad thing is, is i feel sorry for the 19 year old brother, it seems he was brainwashed by his brother, and from the reports i see and hear they are saying he wasnt like that before and his brother had some sort of control over him. The sad thing is that he had his whole life in front of him. try to see it as a parent and think of all he is loosing. He had friends at college, was playing a sport, everyone that knows him cant believe he was part of it because its so out of character for him. as for the older brother well hes another story and i dont feel sorry for anyone except his wife and daughter since it seems they were under his control also.
Monday, March 11, 2013
A few new beginnings
Hi Everyone~
Its been awhile but there has been so much going on. At the end of January i was in a car accident that totaled my car. The hubs was so gracious enough to let me use his car for awhile, but then his ass-hole self kicked in,and wouldn't let me use the car anymore. So since the kids had winter break and i was scheduled off that week it didn't pose a problem. That is until break was over. I couldn't get the kids to school, me to work etc. So I've been off of work since 2/25. I had to transfer the kids from the schools they've been in since we moved here to school closer to the house .They still haven't started yet because we keep getting hammered with snow storms and school keeps getting cancelled. Needless to say the hubs loves to rack chaos into my life and make things more and more difficult.
Also if you haven't noticed we are going thru a separation/divorce. He blind sided me with this news the week after my birthday. Nice guy huh. He is a good guy, this is the second time in 2 years hes done this though and its just chaos. Its been nothing but trouble. I know he has a disease but he cant keep using it as an excuse because things get tough. I have been so depressed its ridiculous. I take 2 anti-depressants, 2 sleep meds, something for anxiety. I have suffered from emotional,verbal and mental abuse for 2 years. Trust me I'm not the one wanting this, he is. But the thing about it is, is that he doesn't care , its like his feelings are on a switch.He can turn them on when things go his way, and when they aren't he turns them off. Its very hard to deal with. He gets counseling at the v.a. but as usual they only see his side of things and he isn't willing to go to couples counseling. During the kids school break there was a small domestic violence issue. He asked me a question i answered plainly ok..and he started yelling and pushed everything off the table and it hit me in the chest. I didn't call the police because that would just cause more of a problem...who knows how he would act once he was released. Yes he still lives here , why i don't know..he threatens he has other places to go but then doesn't go. RIGHT NOW I JUST WANT PEACE. ITS VERY DRAINING.
Also in other awesome news .....I became an Avon Representative !!!! Its so awesome. I love it. I love making women feel beautiful and i like empowering women. I love that is what Avon is about. I love that Avon is a huge supporter of Breast Cancer and they are also huge supporters of Domestic Violence. If your looking to try Avon you can contact me for samples. I can mail them too you . I also have a website you can visit and order from. The website is : youravon.com/christapepin
Please find me on facebook under : https://www.facebook.com/pages/Avon-by-Christa
Orders placed directly thru my website will be directly shipped to you. I am looking for people to try samples and become Avon LOVERS!!!! Prices are awesome and right now if you order anything thru my website you will receive a free hand sanitizer . Check it out ! Hope to hear from you soon!
Its been awhile but there has been so much going on. At the end of January i was in a car accident that totaled my car. The hubs was so gracious enough to let me use his car for awhile, but then his ass-hole self kicked in,and wouldn't let me use the car anymore. So since the kids had winter break and i was scheduled off that week it didn't pose a problem. That is until break was over. I couldn't get the kids to school, me to work etc. So I've been off of work since 2/25. I had to transfer the kids from the schools they've been in since we moved here to school closer to the house .They still haven't started yet because we keep getting hammered with snow storms and school keeps getting cancelled. Needless to say the hubs loves to rack chaos into my life and make things more and more difficult.
Also if you haven't noticed we are going thru a separation/divorce. He blind sided me with this news the week after my birthday. Nice guy huh. He is a good guy, this is the second time in 2 years hes done this though and its just chaos. Its been nothing but trouble. I know he has a disease but he cant keep using it as an excuse because things get tough. I have been so depressed its ridiculous. I take 2 anti-depressants, 2 sleep meds, something for anxiety. I have suffered from emotional,verbal and mental abuse for 2 years. Trust me I'm not the one wanting this, he is. But the thing about it is, is that he doesn't care , its like his feelings are on a switch.He can turn them on when things go his way, and when they aren't he turns them off. Its very hard to deal with. He gets counseling at the v.a. but as usual they only see his side of things and he isn't willing to go to couples counseling. During the kids school break there was a small domestic violence issue. He asked me a question i answered plainly ok..and he started yelling and pushed everything off the table and it hit me in the chest. I didn't call the police because that would just cause more of a problem...who knows how he would act once he was released. Yes he still lives here , why i don't know..he threatens he has other places to go but then doesn't go. RIGHT NOW I JUST WANT PEACE. ITS VERY DRAINING.
Also in other awesome news .....I became an Avon Representative !!!! Its so awesome. I love it. I love making women feel beautiful and i like empowering women. I love that is what Avon is about. I love that Avon is a huge supporter of Breast Cancer and they are also huge supporters of Domestic Violence. If your looking to try Avon you can contact me for samples. I can mail them too you . I also have a website you can visit and order from. The website is : youravon.com/christapepin
Please find me on facebook under : https://www.facebook.com/pages/Avon-by-Christa
Orders placed directly thru my website will be directly shipped to you. I am looking for people to try samples and become Avon LOVERS!!!! Prices are awesome and right now if you order anything thru my website you will receive a free hand sanitizer . Check it out ! Hope to hear from you soon!
Saturday, January 26, 2013
I think i have a black cloud over my head
Hey everyone!
i seriously feel like eeyore! i feel like i have a black cloud that is following me since this summer. in oct i fell down 30 stairs and hurt my knee, then just this past thursday i was in a car accident. everyone is ok, im sore i have neck back head and chest pain. the drs all say its muscular but man it hurts. but we have to wait for the insurance to come and look at the car and decide whats going to happen. as of right now we are down to one car. how fun. then on top of all that excitement we were home last nite getting ready for bed and E said it sounds like its raining. so we are looking for the rain and we walk into M's room and his ceiling is raining. OMG just what we need at a time like this. So as the hubs is turning the water off and punching the ceiling and the walls to see where this water is coming from ..the saying i hear in my head is damn when it rains it pours literally. and its usually this time of year we have bad luck. so people for the insurance for the house wont be able to come out till monday, so as of right now the leak is stopped and M's room is a total disaster. so for now he will have to sleep with me until his room is fixed. what a fricken nightmare! thats all for now !
i seriously feel like eeyore! i feel like i have a black cloud that is following me since this summer. in oct i fell down 30 stairs and hurt my knee, then just this past thursday i was in a car accident. everyone is ok, im sore i have neck back head and chest pain. the drs all say its muscular but man it hurts. but we have to wait for the insurance to come and look at the car and decide whats going to happen. as of right now we are down to one car. how fun. then on top of all that excitement we were home last nite getting ready for bed and E said it sounds like its raining. so we are looking for the rain and we walk into M's room and his ceiling is raining. OMG just what we need at a time like this. So as the hubs is turning the water off and punching the ceiling and the walls to see where this water is coming from ..the saying i hear in my head is damn when it rains it pours literally. and its usually this time of year we have bad luck. so people for the insurance for the house wont be able to come out till monday, so as of right now the leak is stopped and M's room is a total disaster. so for now he will have to sleep with me until his room is fixed. what a fricken nightmare! thats all for now !
Friday, January 11, 2013
New Year New things
Well 2013 is here and lets just say i started some new things. i mean its a new year right? First my sisters encouraged a new hobby, jewelry making. im really new at this so its been a learning experience but its fun...and its something for me, to do besides reading and laundry etc.
Ive made a page for it on faceboook and please check it out prices are reasonable and items can be customized.
http://www.facebook.com/CustomJewelryByChrista
please check it out.
ive also done something else for me in hopes of bettering my life for my family and also to be a good example for my kids. i decided to enroll or attempt to enroll in college courses online and did so and was accepted and got grants to do it. im very excited. ive always loved school so this should be great! Also they are all online so i wont have to worry about finding a sitter for the boys. and if my 18 year old can do it so can i!
Right now im going to get my associate in arts in medical office administration with concentration in medical records. School started january 7th and so far so good.
The weather has been weird and wacky around here and we did get some snow. Other things in life are all in an uproar and chaos insues but im trying to stay focused and positive. because if i dont ill fall apart.
More soon! Make sure to tune in !!
Ive made a page for it on faceboook and please check it out prices are reasonable and items can be customized.
http://www.facebook.com/CustomJewelryByChrista
please check it out.
ive also done something else for me in hopes of bettering my life for my family and also to be a good example for my kids. i decided to enroll or attempt to enroll in college courses online and did so and was accepted and got grants to do it. im very excited. ive always loved school so this should be great! Also they are all online so i wont have to worry about finding a sitter for the boys. and if my 18 year old can do it so can i!
Right now im going to get my associate in arts in medical office administration with concentration in medical records. School started january 7th and so far so good.
The weather has been weird and wacky around here and we did get some snow. Other things in life are all in an uproar and chaos insues but im trying to stay focused and positive. because if i dont ill fall apart.
More soon! Make sure to tune in !!
Saturday, December 29, 2012
Wow so much to catch up on!
Hey Everybody!
long time no post....ive been unbelievably busy and distracted its ridiculous. In june i went to michigan to see my baby graduate from high school. it was a proud proud proud mommy moment. i was only there for a short time. then came back home and back to the grind of work. the summer went by so so fast. For M's birthday we went camping for a few days and it was fun. we stayed in a cabin and the kids just were able to go anywhere in the park. The hubs took them canooing, and we painted ceramics. it was very restful.
Right after camping we came home and it was back to school time. We kept M back in kindergarten even though he just turned 6, but he was a young 5 when he went last year so its definitely is helping him. E started 4th grade and has been doing exceptionally well. and of course R started college in august, wow how time flies.
R played rugby in the fall and i almost had a heart attack. i have no idea really what it is but all i know is my baby had 2 black eyes. :(
E played flag football this fall and he did really well and it was awesome for him to do, we had a blast . His team came in second in their superbowl. he even got his first trophy and he was so proud as are we.
Other than that. Ive decided to take up a new hobby and that is jewelry making. i have an etsy shop but yet to have anything in it. its called custom jewelry by christa or christas custom jewelry. it definitely is a new adventure. My other new adventure is im going to college! it will all be online of course but hey its a starting point.
as for now thats all . i will post again soon
long time no post....ive been unbelievably busy and distracted its ridiculous. In june i went to michigan to see my baby graduate from high school. it was a proud proud proud mommy moment. i was only there for a short time. then came back home and back to the grind of work. the summer went by so so fast. For M's birthday we went camping for a few days and it was fun. we stayed in a cabin and the kids just were able to go anywhere in the park. The hubs took them canooing, and we painted ceramics. it was very restful.
Right after camping we came home and it was back to school time. We kept M back in kindergarten even though he just turned 6, but he was a young 5 when he went last year so its definitely is helping him. E started 4th grade and has been doing exceptionally well. and of course R started college in august, wow how time flies.
R played rugby in the fall and i almost had a heart attack. i have no idea really what it is but all i know is my baby had 2 black eyes. :(
E played flag football this fall and he did really well and it was awesome for him to do, we had a blast . His team came in second in their superbowl. he even got his first trophy and he was so proud as are we.
Other than that. Ive decided to take up a new hobby and that is jewelry making. i have an etsy shop but yet to have anything in it. its called custom jewelry by christa or christas custom jewelry. it definitely is a new adventure. My other new adventure is im going to college! it will all be online of course but hey its a starting point.
as for now thats all . i will post again soon
Tuesday, June 26, 2012
RIP RAYMOND J PLOUHAR
This post is all about a high school friend Ray Plouhar who was killed in action in iraq . today is the anniversary. he is a true hometown hero.he is sorely missed by all who knew him and is never forgotten. he died exactly 30 days after he turned 30.
we miss you! please remember him today and say a prayer he did give his life for you!
http://www.facebook.com/pages/Raymond-Plouhar/108158509212672?sk=info
http://www.iraqwarheroes.com/plouhar.htm
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http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=499680699697&set=o.148101865229930&type=3&theater
we miss you! please remember him today and say a prayer he did give his life for you!
http://www.facebook.com/pages/Raymond-Plouhar/108158509212672?sk=info
http://www.iraqwarheroes.com/plouhar.htm
http://www.facebook.com/photo.php?fbid=395648900458636&set=o.148101865229930&type=3&theater
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Monday, June 25, 2012
The craziness that has become our lives
Wow! is all i have to say. Its been crazy around here. Not only with work and the boys school but also the and still fostering macy the prego momma. She had 6 beautiful babies and they were pretty good pups except for bear..he was #1 and he came out making noise and was very noisy alot ..for example if they were playing and one did something he would scream, he screamed when he got shots, when they were finally able to go outside, we would take 3 out a time he screamed even tho he had two siblings with him. It was getting annoying and as everyone was getting adopted he wasnt, but finally he was the last to go..and seemed to go to an outstanding family. Thank heavens!The rescue i work with if anyone is interested in saving a life is
http://newenglandallbreedrescue.org they are amazing. they also transport, you can find available dogs and pups thru petfinder, search under rescue and also on petango, and search under rescue. We also could use fosters.
In other news, May 2 my angel girl wouldve been 16. its been along time.Seems so unreal how time flies by but you still get stuck in those/ that moment. But as god took an angel from me she sent an angel down to my sister as my nephew was born on her birthday so now we have two angels to celebrate!
In late may i was gearing up for my big trip ....i was headed out to michigan to see my baby R graduate from high school. First it was going to be a family trip then just me and the boys then a family then me and the boys and it went on like this for awhile as the hubs didnt know if he was going to work. Finally he had to work so the boys and i headed out for a long drive as we didnt know if i was going to make the drive in one full day.especially with the kids.The drive wasnt too bad, made it to the half way mark around two and got to michigan at 9. we only had a short time, i was there from the 6-11. as i gave myself leeway for the drive issue before i actually made the drive, i couldve left the 12 but didnt want to chance it. It was a great time, i spent alot of time with my baby, and he spent time with his brothers and then we spent time with the family and then came the big day Sunday June 10th. Such an accomplishment and so happy and grateful and proud of my boy. and he looked so handsome. just mere weeks before i was getting pics from the prom ( his first one) he asked his date in such a romantic creative way, ( he gets it from me) and they looked gorgeous that nite, i would hope he had a good time because hes not really a dancer but he said he had an amazing time :D He is very smitten over this girl. it was funny at graduation that she came over to get pics with him and he was going to go over and get pics with her family ...which they did. His dad and I actually got along, i think he finally gets it or doesnt care because R will be 18 in october. We took him from graduation and did dinner on my side since some people were going to be leaving to head back home and i was leaving the next day. then he got a text and just as i said "how come you didnt introduce me to anna?" she said the same thing, so we met up later that evening, i really like her they are both quiet and seem to get along great. shes very polite very athletic and shes special to him. BE STILL MY FREAKIN HEART, HES MY BABY FOR GOODNESS SAKES!.
Also we went to the cemetery while i was there, as i hadnt been in 6.5 yrs ( since my mom died) and it was fine except there was no way to mark her, so one day i went with the three boys and they all brought a rock and i made a handmade stick cross then i went shopping and made a plaque with her name its wooden and has her name etc, i got a mini flag pole and a flag with butterflies as i have a butterfly tattoo for her, a moon and star wind chime and then a small turtle and frog statues, it came out nice and hopefully it will stay the only thing i couldnt do was find a garden stake of any sort to put the plaque on to put it into the ground instead of having it just rest. i was given lots of compliments on it. its the only way to mark her if anyone does go and see her. and the amazing thing i knew right where she was the moment i pulled in. even tho more people have been placed it was like a beacon...or maybe just a mom thing. I didnt cry when i had the boys with me R was surprised but the younger kids didnt really get it. The day i went and placed everything i almost cried and laid with her and wished beyond words that id never had to leave her there, wishing i could bring her with me.But sadly it isnt so.
it seems like my trip flew by which it did and it was to short of a time to be with my baby. his school plans are up in the air but hopefully he will come out here for a period of time.
E is off to 4th grade this year and we are keeping M in kindergarten because hes such a young five. he turned 5 three days before school started, he enjoyed it but also he would get overwhelmed too.
well thats all i have for now in life updates hope this finds everyone happy healthy and enjoying their summer!
Michaelas cemetary marker
Me and my graduate :)
Brothers
my baby and me
diploma
family
Proud mom
brothers
me and my boys
the graduate
Mom aunts and the graduate
ALSO CHECK OUT THIS AWESOME LINK FOR MY SISTERS GALLERY AND MAYBE PURCHASE A PIC OR TWO!!!
Sunday, June 24, 2012
Happy birthday to the gorgeous hubs
HAPPY 32ND BIRTHDAY TO MY GORGEOUS HUBS I LOVE YOU MORE THAN WORDS AND AM LUCKY TO BE SHARING A LIFE WITH YOU
Sunday, March 18, 2012
Been Busy? Just a tad
Wow !
Hey everyone, its been a bit busy around our household lately.Not only with the kids school and our new regiment for that but also the hubs has been super busy at work. As you may or may have not read we bought our first home in Oct. Everything kept getting delayed because of the previous owner,she would promise it would be done by our close date which was Sept 29 and it never happened, we didnt close till Oct 21. we still arent unpacked from it, we have no pics on the wall there isnt enough storage in the kitchen. we got the kids room sort of put together but the only toys that they have in there are the ones from xmas. we dont have our bed frame even up because we have original hardwoods in our room so we just have a dresser and our boxspring and matteress is on the floor. The room across from us doenst have a door or a closet ( we originally were going to choose that for a room but the hubs decided that the other room would be better even though it has ac closet, the rooms upstairs are huge and im not sure if they are the same size but they are both huge. one side we have a little office set up, then we have a tv up in there for the kids to watch their shows, we have boxes on one half (till we can go thru and see what can go down in the basement. and then in one small corner the hubs has his paintball stuff. here is a video of one of the walk thrus of the house, sorry it can be a bit jumpy my husband is using his go pro camera and has it on his head! the video is below :)
in other news we chose to keep the kids in the same district we they were in...and i work out that way so it just seems easier as to drive them since i go that way anyways. so its pain on my days off to have to take them but we dont know much about the district we moved in so im not sure that we would ever move them.
IN AWSOME NEWS: my older son may be moving with us permenetly! he graduates in june which is about 11-12 weeks from now. the hubs is not sure if he is going to be able to make it even though he wants to go and weve been planning it most of the year. but there has been tons of work lately so it may be just me and the younger kids. so it will be nice to see my siblings and some of my neices and nephews. AND BOY OH BOY IM SO EXCITED TO SEE MY BOY GRADUATE!!!
And other exciting news we've become foster parents to dogs from rescue specifically NEW ENGLAND ALL BREED RESCUE. to be a foster you just have to provide a loving warm home and they give you the food and all the vetting! the first dog we got was a jack russel mix, and he was so smart, i had him taught to sit and stay within 20 minutes, he loved the hubs ! now we have what used to be a pregnant momma and she delivered 6 pups on february 29th. theyre all gorgeous and i call them my puppy army. im trying to convince the hubs to let me keep one. im not sure what i will do when they have to be adopted out but they are going to let me do the adoptions so , i will be pick and then after the pups are ready both pups and momma will be up for adoption. here is their website if you are in new england. they do transport so think about giving one a new home, they have all ages breeds sizes and sometimes they are rescuing from down south and bringing them here to get new homes! here is their facebook page : http://www.facebook.com/NEABR
Check them out its worth it! thats all for today and we are caught up so ill be back soon...ps we've been having awsome weather here in new england, high 50's mid 60's and this week into the 70's wahoo!
Friday, January 6, 2012
its been a long time!
Hey Everyone~
How are things with you ? Last time i blogged i talked about how all of a sudden i got a gall bladder attack and had to have surgery...it was painful. i was out for 19 days before i had the surgery then couldnt go back to work till Aug 15...my work wouldnt take me til the doctor cleared me and i could lift anything.
things have been moving swiftly since then. School started for the kids, we were looking at houses...found one fast, aug 30! put an offer in and it was accepted on the 31..we had the inspection in early sept and were supposed to close on sept 29 but the seller didnt have everything complete even though she swore she would. then they said the following week. that happened for a few weeks until finally we got to close on Oct 21!!! we started moving immidiately!! we had had things packed since sept anyways. The hubs hired movers for the 22, and they were supposed to be to the apt by 1pm, but then they called to say the job they were on would be awhile longer, that went on for hours, they kept calling and setting it back, we had even moved all the boxes out side so they could just put the boxes in the truck and then we had taken the beds apart so all they would have to load really is the boxes and furniture...pftt ! I was getting pissed. the hubs was just letting them walk all over him but he wasnt doing anything about it..so we just finally moved everything in. the kids had fallen asleep and so just as were were changing for bed, we get a knock on the door at 10pm! oh my god i went off. your goin to try and move us at 10pm. Eff that, they told us they could come back before 4 the next day and we said no if they were going to do it we would be the first one.they said they couldnt they had booked clients for that day...um hello we were booked clients for saturday and they didnt show up till 10 pm when they appt was for 1pm.
So we just decided that we would get a uhaul and move ourselves...which we have done everytime we moved. Even when people say they will help they never show. so we took all of sunday to move and then took the rest of the week to get everything...till we got the biggest snow storm..the day before halloween....things that happened during that are another post.
so we've been in our new house since then, and its going fine, no major issues. i want to get a puppy but the hubs says only small breed, weve looked at pompoos and papillons puggles and chiweenies..so far no luck, people here want a fortune for them and shelters put you thru an inquisition to adopt one...even on craigslist for a mutt its 300$!!!! there are no free puppies to be found.
well we will keep looking.
Well im going to close here for now....
Wednesday, August 31, 2011
Because things are hard, and tough
Well, things are pretty hard here, which isnt easy to admit. my husband works really hard at work. Im working really hard at my new job. Things are really hard with the kids. On top of the normal stuff my husband goes and helps out a friend. He walks in the door i walk out. there is no down time. To top it off , if E has add/adhd, it makes things hard, there was no difinitive diagnosis when i took him the other day as the dr is waiting for more things from the school. It makes things difficult to deal with the kids, its like they feed off each other. sure some of its normal brotherly behavior, but other times its just down right crappy to deal with. E has a hard time with knowing about consequence, its like it doesnt even matter. When he was small i lived with my gma and she always got him out of time out etc. So he never really got that there is consequence for doing something or what not. SO for example if he gets in trouble for say hitting his brother, and we take his ds away, sure he screams and cries but then hes over it. like it doesnt even matter. We cant find anything that really does anything. we do time out, stand in the corner, take things away. and really its doing nothing. NOTHING. if you ask him after if he understands why he is in trouble he just says "i dont know." Its like its pointless. Im at my wits end. really. It makes things difficult in my relationship with my husband. and that makes me really sad. I know i must sound like a bad person but its the truth. I know that life is easier without kids, you dont have to find someone to watch them you can just leave for the weekend and not worry about it. After living here a year we just now found a sitter. we have yet to use her for going to do something fun, we have only used her to come and stay with the kids when the hubs has to stay late or has an appt and i have to go to work. We realize that we have made a mistake by moving here. yes we are closer to family( they still live 1.5 hrs away) so they are no help unless they have way advance notice.We just have had to many problems to even enjoy anything.
I havent had an easy past. ive mentioned it before. I was a single mom for a long time. Then i met my husband and my life changed. I have had struggles and gone with out, i still do. I just learned to hold everything in. it makes it really hard. I cant say sheesh give me a break or anything because it makes it harder for him and the things that have happened with him after we moved here.
Everything scares me.The thing i want most is my husband and family. I just wish we could catch a break. Yes this job is helping out along with other things. But i still am afraid. I worry every day and every nite. The stress i carry i can feel taking a toll on my body. My heart is full of love but its also heavy. I know nothing is easy and not handed to you, sheesh if it was alot of things would be better. I know everyone has to work hard.
Wednesday, July 13, 2011
A bit of stomach pain then a trip to the hospital and now a surgery and other fun summer stuff!
Howdy folks!
hope you had a pleasant 4th of july weekend. we went camping it was fun we got a new air matteress and the kids fished and we swam, and we ate some good food. we were pretty much close to a town that had hardly anything. We had our share of spiders, most were daddy long legs...but still theyre spiders, and when they are in the dome part of your tent where the door is and right over where you go in and out it gives you the heebies. we did find a few on the kids pillows or blankets. gross if you ask me.
we came home the morning of the 4th and unloaded the car and relaxed showered etc. and then ate and decided to take the kids to the drive in by the house, and we saw TRANSFORMERS 3 it was an epic epic movie. so so good. it was 20$ a car load for 2 movies but since the hubs had to go to work we only stayed for one. i mean it didnt start till close to 9 and got out after 1130.
a few days later all h e double hockey sticks broke loose....
wednesday nite we ordered pizza for dinner ..nothing unusual and the same almost order to the t. a little bit after eating probably about an hr the hubs stomach hurt and he was in the bathroom for about a half hour. then around 945pm i started getting a sharp pain across the top of my stomach and it was right under my ribs, i just figured it would hurt for a bit. i tried maalox and also laying on my tummy ( like )putting pressure on it would help. NO DICE. i also kept goin into the bathroom either thinking if i got rid of it somehow i would feel better, but nothing . ( gross i know and tmi) so i decided at 1045 i was going to bed but i layed down and couldnt lay on my tummy and couldnt lay on either side. it sucked so i started asking the hubs where the spleen appendix and gall bladder were and hes like not sure go look it up so i did. I couldnt figure it out, i ended up calling the after hrs clinic # and the nurse told me a few things to try and so i did. nothing helped. she then told me after the 3rd call to go to the er. i had to wake the hubs and tell him to go and he said i should probably go to the er by ambulance. so i did . i puked on the way there and then they couldnt really determine anything so they ended up discharging me ..a block from home i got sick again. we came home and slept since we had been at the hospital since 1230 am and it was now 6 am. got sick 5 x times that day, went to follow up with my regular dr and was determined to be gall stones. LAME. got sick 5 x that day and then i just feel nauseous if i try and eat. i went for a surgical consult today and will be having surgery on the 19th to have the gall bladder removed. hopefully ill have no complications. the hubs will probably take tuesday off. the kids are going to the grandparents for mon and tues nite and maybe wednesday. im a bit nervous but ready to get back to normal.
other than that this new england summer has been steamy so far. today we finally had a break in the humidity today but i hear it will be back this weekend. hopefully once im feeling better we can do fun summer stuff.
Saturday, June 18, 2011
Its been awhile...5 months to be exact
Hi everyone!!!!
i know its been awhile, the last post i wrote was about the rough stuff going on in the house. Im fairly confident that i want to say those are past but i dont want to say for sure. E was diagnosed with adhd with hyperactivity impulseivity on top of it so we diecided that we would try medication to see if it would help him focus and its helped some but ill see what happens if we can up it in august..hes only on 5mg but i think 10 would be ok, somedays i see that its not working as well and its almost their summer break so im hoping that we wont have too many issues there.
things have been working out well for me and the hubs. he goes to the paintball store on saturdays and works and then every other he goes and plays. hes been able to fix guns at the field and also when hes at the store, and he also in between games he is selling things so its good. it gives him a way to relieve the stress of his work week. its been a good outlet for him.
we havent had many date nites as hes either been on a road trip or i work at nite , then with him doing paintball on saturdays and most sundays i work so it doesnt leave to much time, and when i have days off its usually during the week so its not to easy to go out at nite when he has been working hard all day lately in the heat!
As many of you know this weekend is fathers day....we are going to brian's dads house for a bbq, it should be fun it will be us and then his dad and laurie and then his sis jenn and her kids and her bf and his son, and then a few others, so at least the kids will have plenty of people to play with. while we are there with them we will be celebrating brian's and his sister nikki's birthday as brians is the 24th and nikkis is the 26. should be a good time.
i made brian and his dad almost identical father's day gifts, brian's dads shirt says "worlds greatest grandpa hands down" and there is a space between the words and you paint the kids hands on. brians says the same thing but dad of course. then i got him one other shirt and a pair of shorts and for his bday a pair of shorts and 2 more shirts, he has worn some of his good shirts to work so hes got a dwindleing supply of nice things to wear out :/
on his actual birthday i got a sitter so i can take him to dinner and maybe a movie without the kids. we never do much kid free. i think i can count like 5 times since 2007.
other than that we are just spending time as a family and working. when lame things arent crapping out like the washer ( today) and then my cell phone the other day ..sheesh
hope this finds you all wellll!!!
i know its been awhile, the last post i wrote was about the rough stuff going on in the house. Im fairly confident that i want to say those are past but i dont want to say for sure. E was diagnosed with adhd with hyperactivity impulseivity on top of it so we diecided that we would try medication to see if it would help him focus and its helped some but ill see what happens if we can up it in august..hes only on 5mg but i think 10 would be ok, somedays i see that its not working as well and its almost their summer break so im hoping that we wont have too many issues there.
things have been working out well for me and the hubs. he goes to the paintball store on saturdays and works and then every other he goes and plays. hes been able to fix guns at the field and also when hes at the store, and he also in between games he is selling things so its good. it gives him a way to relieve the stress of his work week. its been a good outlet for him.
we havent had many date nites as hes either been on a road trip or i work at nite , then with him doing paintball on saturdays and most sundays i work so it doesnt leave to much time, and when i have days off its usually during the week so its not to easy to go out at nite when he has been working hard all day lately in the heat!
As many of you know this weekend is fathers day....we are going to brian's dads house for a bbq, it should be fun it will be us and then his dad and laurie and then his sis jenn and her kids and her bf and his son, and then a few others, so at least the kids will have plenty of people to play with. while we are there with them we will be celebrating brian's and his sister nikki's birthday as brians is the 24th and nikkis is the 26. should be a good time.
i made brian and his dad almost identical father's day gifts, brian's dads shirt says "worlds greatest grandpa hands down" and there is a space between the words and you paint the kids hands on. brians says the same thing but dad of course. then i got him one other shirt and a pair of shorts and for his bday a pair of shorts and 2 more shirts, he has worn some of his good shirts to work so hes got a dwindleing supply of nice things to wear out :/
on his actual birthday i got a sitter so i can take him to dinner and maybe a movie without the kids. we never do much kid free. i think i can count like 5 times since 2007.
other than that we are just spending time as a family and working. when lame things arent crapping out like the washer ( today) and then my cell phone the other day ..sheesh
hope this finds you all wellll!!!
Wednesday, January 5, 2011
When life throws a curveball
Hi
Things arent going well in my household. they feel like they are spiraling out of control. I may have stated in some previous post that my husband has ptsd panic/anxiety. hes been diagnosed since springtime. well in the fall things started taking a weird turn. out of no where he said he wanted a divorce. i was beyond shocked. After a few days of going around about stuff and an intervention of sorts, he started counseling. he agreed and said he stayed and proceeded to give me a list of things he wanted . he basically wants me to prove to him that things can and will be different. i thought we have been making progress, ive started the ball rolling on some of the things he asked as they are legal things that take some time and arent ever immidiate.(hes known these things the entire time we have been together, and apparently they have bugged him the whole time and just recently he brings them up and wants something done, and my thinking says for 5 years this is bothered you and your just now saying something? he of course doesnt think ive started to do anything about it and thinks im lying about it.) then on jan 3 he started talking about divorce again, so of course my tears anxiety and panic come out , i cant function i cant breathe i hyperventilate. when i try and talk to him about not giving up he just says no and the only reason he contacts me is because he wants to talk about it and i dont. my heart is devestated. i dont want my family obliterated. he asks me what i want and i say my husband and family. i feel desperate, as i cant support us very well on my income. he has always made more than me. he also thinks ive been ungrateful for the things hes done for our family. He sold his motorcycle to help our family so we could get a house in washington, but it never worked out there. when we moved to the east coast he got rid of his truck without being asked because 1 it wasnt a very good snow vehicle, but i felt bad about it and didnt want him to get rid of it, he said he made a huge mistake. he had camaro also in washington that we couldnt move 3 cars here so he sold it. he recently started aquiring handguns for his hobbie of target shooting, he says he may have to sell those. i really dont ask him to do these things. He also says the reason he doesnt ask me to go along is because the few previous times i complained. Ive asked him to give me the opportunity to try again, he said it makes him leary to do it because he thinks it will be the same. i dont know whats going to happen, im hoping we can repair this relationship. He is so important and changed my life completely. he said he doesnt feel appreciated or that its true.but it so is. i love him with everything i am.
another source of contention is the kids, one possibly has add/adhd and hes really difficult to deal with and he makes the 4 year old act out or causes him to scream for no reason,we both become annoyed with the behavior. we both are annoyed that we are around them all the time with no break, we have no opportunity to have a break and go out together as we dont have family help or any friends here. we moved here for family help, and we dont get it. we realize we should have stayed in washington regardless he didnt have these symptoms, he could have all the things hes given up. he could make tons of extra money. ive said lets go back he says its just to much of a hassle. i dont know what or where we go from here but hopefully we conquer this hurdle together. hes my life.
Things arent going well in my household. they feel like they are spiraling out of control. I may have stated in some previous post that my husband has ptsd panic/anxiety. hes been diagnosed since springtime. well in the fall things started taking a weird turn. out of no where he said he wanted a divorce. i was beyond shocked. After a few days of going around about stuff and an intervention of sorts, he started counseling. he agreed and said he stayed and proceeded to give me a list of things he wanted . he basically wants me to prove to him that things can and will be different. i thought we have been making progress, ive started the ball rolling on some of the things he asked as they are legal things that take some time and arent ever immidiate.(hes known these things the entire time we have been together, and apparently they have bugged him the whole time and just recently he brings them up and wants something done, and my thinking says for 5 years this is bothered you and your just now saying something? he of course doesnt think ive started to do anything about it and thinks im lying about it.) then on jan 3 he started talking about divorce again, so of course my tears anxiety and panic come out , i cant function i cant breathe i hyperventilate. when i try and talk to him about not giving up he just says no and the only reason he contacts me is because he wants to talk about it and i dont. my heart is devestated. i dont want my family obliterated. he asks me what i want and i say my husband and family. i feel desperate, as i cant support us very well on my income. he has always made more than me. he also thinks ive been ungrateful for the things hes done for our family. He sold his motorcycle to help our family so we could get a house in washington, but it never worked out there. when we moved to the east coast he got rid of his truck without being asked because 1 it wasnt a very good snow vehicle, but i felt bad about it and didnt want him to get rid of it, he said he made a huge mistake. he had camaro also in washington that we couldnt move 3 cars here so he sold it. he recently started aquiring handguns for his hobbie of target shooting, he says he may have to sell those. i really dont ask him to do these things. He also says the reason he doesnt ask me to go along is because the few previous times i complained. Ive asked him to give me the opportunity to try again, he said it makes him leary to do it because he thinks it will be the same. i dont know whats going to happen, im hoping we can repair this relationship. He is so important and changed my life completely. he said he doesnt feel appreciated or that its true.but it so is. i love him with everything i am.
another source of contention is the kids, one possibly has add/adhd and hes really difficult to deal with and he makes the 4 year old act out or causes him to scream for no reason,we both become annoyed with the behavior. we both are annoyed that we are around them all the time with no break, we have no opportunity to have a break and go out together as we dont have family help or any friends here. we moved here for family help, and we dont get it. we realize we should have stayed in washington regardless he didnt have these symptoms, he could have all the things hes given up. he could make tons of extra money. ive said lets go back he says its just to much of a hassle. i dont know what or where we go from here but hopefully we conquer this hurdle together. hes my life.
Friday, December 31, 2010
Happy New Years Everyone!
Happy New Year everyone!
Heres to hoping everyone gets what they want this year! Please remember to be safe and if you go out please call a cab or have a driver!
One thing im hoping for this new year is that we find a bigger place to live and we have great luck this year as opposed to 2010 we had some good runs of bad luck!
See you all in the new year...with some new posts. E's birthday is one of them!
STAY SAFE!
Heres to hoping everyone gets what they want this year! Please remember to be safe and if you go out please call a cab or have a driver!
One thing im hoping for this new year is that we find a bigger place to live and we have great luck this year as opposed to 2010 we had some good runs of bad luck!
See you all in the new year...with some new posts. E's birthday is one of them!
STAY SAFE!
Friday, December 24, 2010
merry christmas
Hi Everyone!
Merry Christmas from our family to yours! hope you guys have a fantastic day spent with family and friends!
Merry Christmas from our family to yours! hope you guys have a fantastic day spent with family and friends!
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